By Heather Macon
New chapters often reveal new beams of light, beams of possibility, and change.
I often experience waves of anxiety when I think about change and transition, fear of change, and grieving the thought of letting go.
Releasing to let go can be healthy in various ways. I am currently in my last week of a job that has shaken me to the core. I am transitioning out of one of the most challenging, uncomfortable, rewarding, exciting, disappointing, uncertain, yet transformative experiences thus far. I am leaving yet another job, moving to another city, shedding relationships, and learning more about myself. This time for me has been about being more observant, recognizing my wants and needs, my overall self-development, and my learning process. My internal growth has enhanced; although I’ve been confused and uncomfortable at times, I am grateful.
Fear of letting go for me is attached to not being able to grasp onto anything. Often, I am caught up in my own personal tornado, and I need to hold onto everything and glue tiny pieces of my life back together. With that, I am holding onto past behaviors, thoughts, and experiences, and I am not allowing new things to flow abundantly into my life.
Letting go of the need to control every aspect of my life has been a common theme that I am ready to address transparently. I owe it to myself to free the space in my mind for more positive thinking and abundant blessings.
I’m evolving, developing, and changing; the souls that have allowed me to be me with no apologies, the experiences that have shaped a new way of thinking, and the lessons that have allowed me to break but re-structure stronger than before; thank you.
Heather Macon is a contributing writer for the Pedestal Project, LLC. Heather is a creative who enjoys art in all forms. You can follow her on Twitter @HJanaii.