By Madalyn McKnight
It is that time of year when we start seeing posts encouraging us to expose our best selves for the start of a new year and in this case also a new decade. The other day, I looked over my iNotes list of what I hoped to accomplish this year and I haven’t even tackled half of it. All the many triumphs I made this year, and I stared at that list feeling like I failed. I deleted it soon after.
Now don’t feel sorry for me. You have to put forth the effort to get results, and I will admit that this hard year has caused me to shift my focus. I do not regret that. I have different responsibilities at the end of this year that I did not have at the beginning. What I do regret is not being more intentional and giving more of myself to others instead of furthering my own agenda. But what’s done is done. This year my list will comprise of promises to myself. Instead of making a list of what I want, I am making a list of what I need and vow to visit the list often. I am seriously considering a vision board since the Bible encourages us to make the vision plain (Habakkuk 2:2). I could benefit from being reminded of what needs to happen to make me happy and not being afraid to ask if I need help getting there. I am in an indifferent place mentally and emotionally and I need to tap into the woman that I am becoming to fully acknowledge the shift in seasons that the Lord has me in.
I am excited about what the future brings but I will not allow it to stress me out. I am vowing to smile more, spend more time reading, adopt a new hobby, travel, and conquer some of my fears (reasonable fears at least). I encourage you to make sure you are giving yourself in 2020, what you are waiting for the world to give you.
I mean, you’ve made it this far right? Keep pushing and learn to keep parts of yourself to yourself. You deserve.
Madalyn McKnight is a Contributing Writer for the Pedestal Project, LLC. A rare blackbird who has the range and a young black professional with impactful words! Follow her on Instagram and Facebook at @singsongblackbird and twitter @singsongblckbrd