By Kee Smith
I’m in a space where I can feel myself transitioning into the next level of my life. It literally feels like I’m at the door that opens my next level, and I’m holding a ring of keys in my hand, and all I have to do is figure out which key opens the door. No pun intended. It’s always an interesting feeling when I’m here, but it’s familiar. It’s a feeling of hopefulness, faith and it’s also filled with fear. They say you can’t be faithful and fearful simultaneously, but to some extent, I disagree. I have complete faith that the next level of my life includes everything that I’ve prayed for, even if it doesn’t look exactly as I asked. I have complete faith that God has made sure that I’m already equipped with the resources I need to receive those blessings fully. My fear lies within myself. It’s is in how free will, will guide me. I say that because sometimes when God throws my blessings at me, I forget how to catch and altogether drop the ball. Perhaps I become overwhelmed or too excited, and everything that I know is already instilled in me to receive the blessing completely escapes me properly. It’s reaching me to slow down. It’s teaching me to trust myself the way I trust God; I have to slow down, take a deep breath and remember that I already know how to catch.
The other part of that is just as enjoyable. You see, everything I have right now was something I prayed for in the past. Each prayer was a request to activate that next level of my life, and then I received that ring of keys to unlock it. Upon unlocking my next level, I am filled with gratitude and joy, and I think that I’m where I’m supposed to be for the rest of my life. I prepare my mind and set my life up to live at that level because at the time, in my mind, it’s the highest level. And then boom! Time passes, and I’m ready for the next level, which makes me feel ungrateful because it seems like I’m prepared to throw away the level I prayed so hard for to obtain a new one.
I’ve come to realize that I’ve delayed my blessings by lacking trust in myself and having the silly idea that wanting more makes me ungrateful. So I’m here to encourage you to trust in yourself how you trust in God or whichever higher power you choose. I’ve had to learn that being ready to advance to the next level is probably your soul’s way of giving the highest form of gratitude. I think maybe it’s like you’ve completed the next level and learned, experienced, and accomplished all that you were meant to in that space, and now you get to take all of that and apply it to the next level and even guide someone else.
You’ve earned all that you have so far; level up again, sis. You deserve it.
Kee Smith is a contributing writer and is a homie, lover and friend and always “write” on time. Be sure to connect on IG @_ _ _lowkee.