By Chanel Davis
No, really. Take a minute and consider the question.
Although it is never easy, being able to admit to yourself you have issues is a step. Admittance begins the journey to accept.
This does not mean broadcasting it to those close to you or the world. This is an honest conversation with yourself. Choosing to learn who you are. Accepting the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of you. We all possess them. Some people are better at masking or hiding those parts to the world.
Personally, it took me quite a while to admit I have issues. Issues I would have been too ashamed to even think because the thoughts would be loud, someone close could possibly sense them. I was never able to address my own issues until I started to see my patterns produce similar outcomes and also hurting loved ones.
This was the final straw.
I had to physically isolate my negative thoughts, the thoughts that had no positive attributes and resulted in me gravitating towards chaos versus disciplined peace.
An example would be choosing to use an old rusty can opener in your kitchen that should have been thrown away years ago. Despite constantly going to the store and scrolling past the aisle with new, shiny utensils. You still keep rusty Richard in the drawer because it still gives you struggle memories of being broke in college and using your last five dollars to buy can opener to open a can of complimentary raggedy sweet corn you had with every meal.
That is what dancing with my issues have been like until I decided to unpack them because they were becoming roadblocks. I could see the way I would maneuver in certain areas of my life specifically the way I communicated, choosing my friends, the type of energy I hated or even the things I once considered fun.
My issues were deep they stemmed from accepting things as they were instead of using my power to assert myself. I grew to believe I deserved to carry the weight of my issues. That this is who I am. This is normal but it is not.
We have the power to change the things we no longer can accept. Whether it is physical or emotionally manifested. The secret is committing to doing the work.
No cheat codes. Admitting and simply doing the work. I will not divulge my exact issues are, but I will share a testament that unpacking them have helped me to identify who I am. I can walk in my reality and leave my once clouded judgments behind. The things I hated, the people I resented, and even the experiences I used as crutches to once be a trash individual.
Since addressing these issues I can breathe spiritually.
So I ask you again…
How quick are you to admit that you have some type of issues? No, really. Take a minute and consider the question.
Chanel Davis is a Contributing Writer for the Pedestal Project, LLC. Chanel is the creator and operator of the Diary Of A Chocolate Girl podcast aiming to connect with chocolate girls all over through personal experiences and opinions with mild humor and a spiritual flare. Be sure to connect on IG and Facebook @DiaryofaChocolateGirl.